tomorrow is another day

I connect to your world
failing exactly at those points where we are most
alike.

I see myself in you, and you in me
and there’s the hitch:

I see you

So I am hard on you
Because I understand, but I understand too well.
Even though you know that the popular ones are stupid and petty, you say you want to be like them anyway, though with more intelligence and it evades you as to what it takes to be liked.
And I know and remember and cringe;
So stand up and be you
So in the mean time

pained where I was
shamed
the same.

when it should be me
who delivers
grace.

I nudge you to do more, try more, be more-
though I am keenly aware that there is a better way
that alludes me;

And last night when we crashed when I insisted you go to the church group because I know it is a place where you can meet friends who can truly know you and so that you can know more of God but you refused

Because you say you know that the cliques are set and you always fall outside but wish you didn’t;

But you would instead just sit with beyblades or Club Penguin or Powderball because you do so well with them but it falls apart so quickly with real people

when they gape and stare bovine-like
at your tics.

And you want to run out because you don’t know what’s going on and the blurred words of the speaker bounce off your whirring brain--

And because you think differently, see things differently, you feel
different.

Because you take me right back to twelve and I want it to be different for you. But it’s not. and I want you to fit in, too; but doesn’t that mean selling out and losing?

but in a way that makes you fit in
and I am ashamed that this is my crooked message to you:

Because Jesus, yes Jesus, he sees things, he sees you
wondrously.

He understands you oh so well
and the pain and pains you have he has so much
in common with.

And he is with you
and your heavenly Father is right there with you
plunging you
in grace

And I am trying
and I want you to get this from me--
But I am still broken.

yes in the mean time:

See my attempts, forgive my flaws
and see him

Who loves you, knows you, cheers for you like I do,
but perfectly.

And I will try, we will try again
tomorrow

After I tuck you in and kiss your forehead and sing for you yes,
tomorrow is another day.

Because I love you in pain.